And speaking of masturbation and acceptance, can I just say how completely surreal it is to watch a self-made masturbation video clip?
I’m exploring this idea that we’ve got so many misconceptions about ourselves anyway, and so many misconceptions about sex, and so many romance-novel-, literature-, chit-chat-, Hollywood-, television-, and porn-based misconceptions about sex, that (not to caricature any Libertarian readers) the answer might be to watch one’s self!
And no I’m not likely to share it, at least not at this stage of the experiment. (And maybe never since I’m pretty sure that’s not the point. It’s not that I wouldn’t at least consider it after posting about about the importance of acceptance. It’s just that I think other people seeing us probably wouldn’t be the biggest benefit.)
Definitely not what I expected. It’s not what I expected in a good way, or a bad one, just not at all what I expected. Which in a big way is a big point about reality and porn. I may or may not have more to say about this (at least more to say directly) depending on levels of interest. Otherwise I may just fold it into more general conversations about porn vs. reality. If you’ve tried it and care to share what you got from watching I’d like to know what you think or thought.
[Whether reassuring or exasperating, the image behind the “Read more…” link is not otherwise related to this post. :-) —fl]
Submitted by 2089 (not verified) on Thu, 2008-04-17 19:03.
Peekaboo to you! The glimpse of your lower jaw adds so much to the sex appeal of this photo. Thanks for sharing!
[Thank you, Kitty. Happy to! --fl]
Submitted by 2089 (not verified) on Sun, 2008-04-20 06:20.
I've made a bunch of little films with my iMac - this may reflect a deep vanity and self indulgence, but I like to watch them sometimes and I think they are sexy (my lover likes them too!). In some ways I was a bit startled by the intensity or actually being able to see that sense of being taken someplace by the pleasure and the moment - that being lost in that instant and the coming back to earth. Capturing that can be revealing at lots of levels.
[Yeah, it's not bad. Not erotic exactly, to me, though I could see it being very much so someone who *wasn't* me seeing myself. It really is intense, and that's one of the most interesting things about watching -- when you're *in* intensity your focus is so "elsewhere" you don't see things the same way as when you've cooled down. So those videos don't just show a different perspective, they show what's almost a different reality from what we, or at least I, experience. Very revealing. Thanks, Ell. - -fl]